In the quest for enlightenment, do we stand up and try to right a perceived wrong or do we accept that right and wrong are subjective and embrace change no matter the catalyst? After all, change is the one constant in the universe and if we subscribe to the viewpoint that all our experiences are created by us, then it doesn't really matter how we get where we're going as long as we get there. My question is, understanding all this, why must I make the change painful? Maybe because I know where I want to go but I'm not really sure how to get there? Or is it more that I am a procrastinator by nature and fear making the "wrong" choice, so I have to be pushed to get off my rear? I really don't have a clue. I am not masochistic by nature, at least I don't believe that I am but I sure do seem to take the road less traveled more often than not. This is all not just random rambling, it specifically has to do with a recent incident where I was maybe not completely technically innocent but I was unfairly punished. So I'm thinking that maybe I should push the issue as my "crime" was not that great and the repercussions of the chastisement are harsh and far-reaching. However, on the other hand, this same incident resulted in my making a decision that I'd been on the fence about for quite a while and so my higher self says "let it go, you're getting where you need to be and let the other parties stew in their own karmic soup"... ok, so I'm a work in progress. Still, the all-too-human part of me is kind of pissed off and I really am trying to move up the emotional ladder; more because it will benefit me in a myriad of ways in the long run rather than bucking for sainthood. I'd like to say I'm there but the unvarnished truth is, I still want to beat people with my shoe. Well, at least its on a daily basis now and not hourly. Its progress.
Maybe its too soon to make the call. For now, I'll keep trying to feel better about it and who knows, the best really may be yet to come.
